Rage
I don’t know about you, but I carry a ton of rage. I have a Ph.D. and lost my career to this condition. I can’t drive or write. I used to be a great cook. Now the kitchen is a dangerous place. I could go on and on listing the things I have lost to ataxia. You are constantly grieving losses. I grew up with my father who had ataxia and he was the angriest man I knew. I swore I would never be like him. Filled with rage. But here I am, filled with rage. I should say that you would be abnormal NOT to be angry. Please tell yourself that it’s normal to feel angry. It’s not good to take your anger out on others. And learn to say I’m sorry. What to do with the rage? Meditation 🧘♀️ helps. Exercise helps. Support groups help. You find you’re not alone. I also tend to stay consciously aware as I tend to take my anger out on my husband, which is totally unfair. It’s not HIS fault that this is happening. Suggestions are welcome here. As I get worse, the more rage there is.